Man Vs Woman (Part 2)

I talked about this earlier here.


It's really funny how each gender thinks and the truth remains that the mind can never fully meet with the heart. This is a finding that I can keep talking on forever because each gender is simply different and there is no chance that you can find a man & woman with the same mental and sentimental level. I know that this will not make sense to you. But then, once it does, then you will start to understand and it will in the end make sense!

As a general thought, men are much more "hard" than women, while women tend to be much more soft. Men are more self-dependant, while women are more social. Men rely on their rational thoughts(mind), while women rely more on sentiments(assuming it to be heart). These observations are generalizations, of course, but they are fairly obvious.

I accept the fact that I'm different on my level of thinking with my wife. I also tell her sometimes that these are the differences between you and me. However, a woman never wants to feel that she is different from her husband. Her husband has to be her soulmate and they should be the same in everything. Well, as you guessed. This is wrong. A Soulmate can also have differences.

The only question that run through my head now is...If God has created us different, then why bother with that? Why don't we look for the simalarities rather than concentrating on our differences? Men and women can be the same if they crave to be, but they should also give space for their differences to occur.

The keyword is personality.

Regards,

D.enigma

1st Anniversary

Today I celebrate with my wife our first anniversary. :)

The journey is still promising.

I know some of you want me to update more often but I sincerely apologize for not being up to the commitment I promised when I started this blog. My life pathways have changed in so many ways. Being the hard worker that I am, waking up 7:00am and coming back 6 or sometimes it goes up to 8pm... giving my full passion and whatever left of me to my wife, I think you should choose to forgive my lacking the ability to come and update. However, my "Annual leave" is coming soon! I promise I'll try to catch up with you fellas.

I really have so much to share with you all, but I am not in a bombardment mode, if I shall say. I have just came from a consuming party and I must sleep. It is 3:34 am exactly now, work starts 7:30... the machine has to get some sleep or its power will turn off.

Take care all and see you soon,

Best wishes,

Darth-Enigma

A childhood that did not everlast.

It was the beginning of the show
Yet a misery to be blast.
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There was once ... a past
Where I could not bare
The carlessness they share.
The envy they hold when they stare.
The things I faced and saw
The tears I had to shed, it was sincerely unfair.
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There was once ... a past
Where I could not see the light
Everything was just not right.
Yet in the vains, love still flow
Like a dove hugging me so tight.
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There was once ... a past
With no one real best friend
And every relation has got to just end.
I Give, They take, then throw
That's where I just could not really blend.
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There was once ... a past
For which I somehow thought I'm ill.
But I held my self up still.
Waiting for a thrill..
Happiness did not once glow
It was indeed an inevitable spell.
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There was once a past
Where I lost my queen
I felt I'm in a desert; nothing green
Nothing to touch, no one to be seen


It killed me too slow
And I was only a teen
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There was once a past
When I played piano and flute
They healed me from the root
And like a system, I had to reboot.
I finally had the chance to grow..
To kick some butts and actually shoot.
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There was once a past
Where I could finally see the ray
The white flowers that made me stay
It was indeed a great day

The memories did not want to go
It was a bright pathway, yet still gray.
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There was once a past
When I finally had the luck
And the time stopped saying tick-tuck.
I did not anymore actually suck

It was nearly the end of the show.
My life pathways just needed a truck.
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There is now... a future
Life that is new
Above the purple skies is the view

Pure hearts like white snow
It is like heaven where there is only...Few.......

Enigma__^

Collection of Memories

The unspoken voices have returned,
resuming the hidden auras of life.
Whispering to your ears..
Approaching you..
Awakening you... from the long sleep
From your solitude..
From the unreachable dreams.

To God only I put my faith
The sour in my heart...

The giant wounds that I can not take..

The love that I shall still forsake


God..

I am withen your hands..
Please heal me....
Please forgive me.....
Please give me the strength to fight...
please guide me to the light..

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"I wish I could erase all the memories and start a new white page."

Darth.Enigma

Another thing........

I just want to jot down in this blog the fact that..

I got..

engaged. :)

Anonymous comments..

..are now enabled. I have done that for a couple of reasons. One of them is that I do realize that some people would like to argue with what I write but maybe they don't want me to know who they really are. It is fine with me. I'm having this blog to hear different sides of views. Supportive comments are always good, but I need critics as well. Thus, you have the freedom now to say what you want. But just be careful not to insult/flame me or any of my commentors.. I'm very sensitive at this. :)

Another reason is that I often hear some of my friends saying that they DO read my blog but they can not comment because they don't have a blog yet/they're not registered. I don't want to hear this excuse again lol.

ALWAYS LEAVE YOUR COMMENT. LET ME KNOW YOU EXIST IN MY LIFE XD

All in all, I hope that this thing will not be abused. Thanks in advance.


Yours,

'Yes I do, but I can't' is a thought I've been painfully living in nowadays.

Knowing that you do but you can not say that you do is a really hard concept to move on with. Knowing that there are restrictions that we can not go byeond often limit our perciptions and let us stay in a handicapped circle. I learned that we don't always get what we want in this life. Yet, we also don't want to give up on what we can't have. We like the challenge. We like to have the impossible.

"Forbidden food always looks tempting."

Another issue I'm really worried about is the counter force I'm using against society these days. Everyone complains about my anti-socialism. Everyone around me wants the old Enigma back. I say am always here when you need me. But have you been there when I needed you? So problems arise. I have this terrible thought that all people are playing against me, or maybe its only they have fun playing that rule. At any rate, I always go back to my room and luck the door. Staying away helps sometimes.

A common mistake some people are unaware of is the fact that kindness is a powerful weapon. That's why they ignorantly target the kind people and have their personalities growing depending on them. They think that kind people are weak and that's why it is okay to abuse them. From what I've been through, I have to say that kind people are more like a TNT. They are like a ballon that the more you keep blowing inside of, the more it will grow. And in the end, as you probably already guessed...

Boom.

Be careful. Because indeed..



"Nothing is what it seems."

Life has changed in so many ways. Years are flying by and we are always running out of time.. Getting used to be out-of-the-way turned to a habit, for which I cannot afford to break anymore. Every time I pray, I ask God for direction. Walking the pathway that has no slight of mercy on me, I keep wondering when it will end.

I can no longer delineate the true meaning of happiness. I know I will not find it here but in the hereafter. To many, happiness is defined by wealth, getting married, having kids, a good career, and a high education...etc. But To me, I know deep inside that that's not all there is to it. No matter what, when, or how.. You will never stop countering troubles. And as long as this happens, happiness is not assured.

No one is fond of reading my thoughts I'm sure. Because every time I open my mouth and say the truth that I see, people will immediately runaway. That's why I have no genuine friends. It's rare, very rare, to find someone who will grip my thoughts. People liked the old me, the happy jumping like a kid everywhere kind of guy. Making jokes every second. But one can't afford smiling at peoples' faces forever. You can't keep wounds in your heart and smile and act as if nothing happened. They will see it, and then ask you.

When that happens, you'll start to have faith again that… "Oh my god, eventually some one cared to ask" … That there is someone who wants to listen. While in fact, they were just trying to solve the puzzle. "Who is this quiet guy?" is all their concern.

They want to know who I really am.

When I open my heart to them, they will be contented! They will think that they won… probably a noble prize or something of that sort. Once they take for granted that the mystifying gentleman is no longer an obscurity, you will never see them again. Wow, how does that suck? That's where I will say to them: You will NEVER understand who I am. People usually, if not often, like to be with two kinds; the mysterious or the funny. If you can't afford any of these, then let me expect that you are having difficulties making friends.

It's amusing how I always point my finger at the people and say that its always there mistake. It's even funnier that I remember I told someone once, if we ever get apart, it will be because of you -- and that what happened. I do feel bad when I say this, but I know I will never harm a friendship I want to maintain.

Sadly, my assumptions were right.

Well, it's time to go to bed. I do feel abandoned, but it's good to have someplace to go to when there is no one to listen… And that somewhere for me is here. So, excuse me if you found this just another down pulling post. I need to let out -.-

mh.. Ramadhan Kareem to all.

May God accept all our prayers and good deeds in this holy month.

Yours/

Enigmatic Sensation